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Why would anyone care about how I changed my views about homosexuality and what brought about that change? One would not – unless of course one would like to see how I caved into the traps of liberalism, or sold my soul to western values sacrificing traditional ones, or perhaps just curious about how the transformation happened.

Growing up…

I grew up in the 1980’s in a traditional Indian family –  a Bengali family. My father was a mid-level employee in a steel plant and my mother was a primary school teacher. My grandmother and my uncle (my dad’s younger brother) lived in the same two-bedroom house, not unusual in those days, and probably better off than the average Indian family.  I was never a witness to any display of affection inside or outside the house – even if I caught a glimpse it would be so outrageous a thing in my mind, I would dismiss it in a second as an aberration.   Most of my friends and I had our first lessons in love and sex and everything in between from older kids or books – and that was before we hit puberty. It was as if there was an underground network of rebels who were demystifying the secrets of life in a society where such discussions were taboo.

As I hit the teens, my aunts would sometimes discuss “love” in front of me while talking about the weekend movies on broadcast television. But sex was still a big “no-no”. Indian movies were centered around love and more often than not, love triangles. But even the concept of adultery was censored out [Those who are curious can research Libaas, a film that was never released because of this reason].  It was not surprising that the word “homosexuality” was foreign to me.

The first time I came across the phenomenon was when I was about 14. A friend brought it up. He had seen a movie (of western origin, in a “parlor” – where censored movies were illegally screened) where this “thing” was shown. Our first reaction was shock which was immediately followed by disgust. It was against against everything that we knew (albeit that knowledge was only about 6-8 years old).  My friend was absolutely shaken.  Soon after, I was reading a book by a well known Bengali author [Sunil Gangpadhyay, and the book was Purba Paschim] where I first came across the word “lesbian”. My Oxford School Dictionary was mum about the word.  When I asked my dad, his first question was where did I find the word! And, for obvious reasons, I had to lie that it was in the newspaper. He looked away when he said that he did not know what it was.

In the years that followed, our knowledge of homosexuality remained stagnant. However, we were used to seeing transgender individuals (hijra) while growing up. They lived in communes and appeared to earn their living from charitable donations. Bollywood films, an integral part of the popular culture of the 1980s, avoided references to homosexuality; but often portrayed transgender individuals in a disparaging way, as incidental comic relief.  The societal attitude was no different. As we were finishing high school and starting college, our go-to slur for anyone who was less than masculine in our eyes, was “hijra” or euphemistically “50-50”.  Early 1990s was the time when when homosexuality slowly made its way into our vernacular. It was often used to scare others off (“Beware of that guy, he is a…”), or express inability or improbability of a person to attract girls (“Oh him? He is a …”), and variations of that – more of  a handy adjective for ridicule than anything else.  Although, I hate to admit, I was no exception.

Deeper look…

When I came to the United States for my masters, I associated homosexuality with perversion and/or abnormality.  So it was not surprising that a few months into the course,  when I found out that one of my friends, a classmate, was gay, I pondered over it and thought it was “unfortunate”. Over the next few months, these issues were discussed more and more in and out of the classroom – I decided to listen to the other side.

I had many questions, but these were the first ones:

  1. What is it that is unsettling about homosexuality? That it is “not normal”? That it is “harmful”? That it breaks long accepted norms of the society? Or that “God never intended…”?
  2. Why is having an opinion or taking sides on all these aspects of the issue important?
  3. If, indeed it is important to take sides, which side and why?

Is it normal?

What is “normal”? I think “normal” can be interpreted as: usual or ordinary; or, mentally and physically healthy.

One cannot argue with the fact that even today (it was no different in the late 1990s and early 2000s) there are more heterosexuals than homosexuals – regardless of whether one judges by incidence or prevalence. Depending on the sources referred, the percentage of the population that are not heterosexual, in most countries, is less than 10.  Rates are typically higher in the west –  as an example, one study from as far back as 1995 ( found percentages of individuals with homosexual behavior or homosexual attraction were higher than 10% in the United States, United Kingdom and France. But if one in 10 individuals in three major countries demonstrate homosexual behavior or homosexual attraction, it would be hard to consider it highly unusual or “not normal”

The psychological aspect, i.e. whether it is a mental disorder or not, is often argued. I found out that organizations of repute such as the American Psychiatric Association, the American Psychological Association,  and the World Health Organization ruled out homosexuality to be a mental disorder.

Is it harmful?

As long as it stays between two consenting adults, how could it harm me in any possible way? People might argue that some would find it distressing if an individual of one’s own sex approached in a romantic way. True. But that sort of distress is not uncommon. There are people who feel distressed when they are approached by little girls selling cookies or by the overtly aggressive salesman. The simple answer is that we learn to deal with it.

Its discussion or experience put pressure on parents and individuals whose religious beliefs are in the contrary. But so does other phenomena. Public display of affection, for example.  Or explaining hijabs or burquas to non-Muslims; or, their absence to observing Muslim children; all are as stressful. When my daughter was three, she asked me why we do not go to church while all her friends do or if Santa Claus was real,  it was not easy for me to explain, but I survived that without a nervous breakdown.

Does it break long accepted societal norms?

It does break long and widely accepted societal norms. But, if there is no truth to that accepted norm, we are probably better off breaking it. There was a time when people believed that the world was flat, and believing otherwise was blasphemy and people lost more than their religion and credibility arguing against that. It, however was and is true.

On the flip side, the same society might have marginalized one of its sections, perhaps for centuries, assuming that they were “not normal” and deserved to be ostracized.  I remember one of my friends (this was much later, though) mentioned she was afraid that the schools would not consider homosexuality a “sin” and she did not want her children to learning anything to the contrary. Many argue that way when it comes to creationism. But if there is overwhelming reasons against a long standing staunch belief, religious or otherwise, it will eventually have to make way for others.

But God never…

As far as God’s intention, I can write a book on that. To me, this was the least intriguing question. For starters, I did not get that memo on homosexuality (or anything else) from My God, so I guess S/He left it to my discretion. For those who had their epiphany, or consider their religious text to be that memo, I tell you in the words of Dave Allen (and David Shepherd) “May your God go with you”.  I can respect other people’s beliefs to the same extent they can respect mine.

Why form an opinion? Take sides? Justify one’s own beliefs?

Perhaps because our beliefs often trump our reasons in actions and responses. I think once we come to terms with our beliefs, we can rest assured that even in our subconscious, we will act or respond as we would in our full senses.  Belief is that one place in our minds where we are our most comfortable self. Reason comes second, at best. Beliefs, especially the ones that have stayed with us the longest, are also the hardest to alter for most of us. It takes a barrage of reason, experience and most importantly time to alter a long standing belief. With age, it becomes harder. Nevertheless, I believe, it is important to take sides especially if your reasons convince you to do so.

So, which side? 

I came to accept the fact that homosexuality was neither abnormal nor perversion.  It was not easy. For a long time, even after I was convinced that it was perfectly normal to be homosexual, I was not comfortable thinking that a close family member might come out of the closet. I kept thinking that it would break my heart if I found out my daughter grew up to be lesbian.  But I think, finally, I have come to terms with it.  I do not have any qualms before telling my daughter that it was perfectly fine for a man to marry another man, or a girl to be in love with another girl –  they are as much capable of a fulfilling life as any.


I understand that I may not have covered every angle or element on this issue –  just the key ones that helped me come to terms with this dilemma. Also, I can understand why many people find it hard to accept it (and that includes my own parents and some friends). But this is one of those issues that people need to figure out themselves whether they can accept it or not.


I have tried to be regular with this blog – but I have not been able to. But once in a while something happens that is eventful enough to interrupt my slumber.  The Zimmerman vs. Martin case is one such incident. Almost everyone in the US who listens/watches/reads the news, know about it – and, has a strong opinion about it.  The whole debate has primarily circled around whether Zimmerman should have been convicted. As the case unfolded and was finally decided resulting in acquittal of Zimmerman, emotions have been flowing aplenty from both sides.

To me, there are two sides of the story – one, the practical/moral/real side; and two, the legal side. Before, I get into the details, I would state that I strongly believe in the rule of law and the US Justice System. But in this one instance, it appears the courts were able to uphold the law, but could not do justice.

The facts

Lets first review the  practical/moral/real side. The facts – not considering past records, characters, race, career ambitions, love for guns or drugs etc. of the two main figures in this incident – that most people would agree to, are as follows:

  • A man spots a hooded boy walking in his neighborhood; he does not see the boy committing any crimes whatsoever;
  • He calls 911; the responder suggests (not being entitled to “instruct”) that the man should stay in the car;
  • The man decides to leave the car for a reason only he knows [hard to believe that he was trying to read street name];
  • There was a scuffle – no one knows (except for the man) how it came to be;
  • The man gets a nose bleed (possibly broken) and bump on the head and the boy is fatally shot;


Does the man have any right to pursue and take action? Neighborhood Watch volunteers are entitled to just that: watch and report. Remember the man is NOT an authorized security officer who should patrol or investigate incidents in the neighborhood.   Would anyone argue that this was an indiscretion on the man’s part?

What would I do?

If I have reasons to suspect that a crime was about to occur, I would call the police and I would stay in the car, try to follow along only from a safe distance without offering any opportunity to my suspect to engage.  Trying to read the street name to provide directions to cops sounds pretty lame especially if there is a “punk” roaming around.

If I were the boy, I would be suspicious of a man following me in a new neighborhood.  I would either try to hide.  Running would draw attention, and most people who do not know me in that neighborhood would think I have done something wrong. My skin color and attire will not help either. If I hide and realize that my stalker is about to find me I would try my best to defend myself – and in that situation, I would try to get him down on the ground and run (notice, this time I run because do not have any other viable option).

The boy did not attack the car; if he were to engage first, he could have thrown a stone, or do something to provoke an encounter. What could have happened if Zimmerman did not get out of the car, even if his suspicions were indeed true? The cops would come and would probably have detained Martin.  There could have been a break-in. But a life would not have been lost.

Is Zimmerman guilty? He is guilty of not listening to the responder’s advice; he is guilty of pursuing a suspect that he was not authorized to do; he is guilty of provoking an engagement (which he could have avoided) which resulted in the death of a teenager even if it is inadvertent.

The legal side

The legal side of the story is very different. The law (and I am not a lawyer) requires the jury to review evidences and witness testimony and conclude whether Zimmerman acted in self defense.  What amounts to self defense rather when can I act in self defense? When someone threatens to punch me? When someone pushes and my head hits a wall? When someone threatens me with a ball point pen? In theory, all of that. What action can I take in self defense? Any. It does not have to commensurate the threat. I can take out a concealed weapon and fire.

A very few reasonable human beings can conclude (in fairness) that Zimmerman did not act in self defense beyond reasonable doubt. So I do not think that if I were a juror, I could have had a different conclusion.

Can you act in self defense if you started an incident then as it progresses, you feel threatened and/or overpowered? I do not know the legal side of that argument.

The issue is there is no way to know how the scuffle started. We only know how it ended. Although, one can argue that the incident started with Zimmerman started the pursuit in his car.  But it is hard to say beyond reasonable doubt that he got off the car to attack Martin. However slim, there is a possibility that he got off only to see where Martin was headed when he lost sight of him. Martin may have jumped him, I would too, if I see stalker coming close to me when I am trying to hide. Remember Martin’s car did not have “Neighborhood Watch” printed on it.  I don’t think that anyone would argue it is logical to conclude that someone without the stamp of authority following me in my neighborhood is most likely be a stalker or at least have a bad intent.

But the law, as it stands, cannot take into account those eventualities. So the jury can not really be faulted in their decision.


If I killed a burglar who broke into my house defending my family, I would still feel remorseful for the rest of my life. Because I took a life – something irreversible. While it could be that the person may have harmed my family, but may be he was just after my money or valuables.  So there is still a 50% chance that I killed him for saving my money or valuables – which, to me is despicable, unpardonable. I hope, if anything  Zimmerman is remorseful of taking a life which he could have avoided if he acted differently.

My daughter, who is taller than most others her age, often wears  a hoodie. She is not black, but brown. She goes around the neighborhood sometimes for a walk, for a run. I do not think anyone outside of the few homes that are adjacent or close by knows her. (I do not know any of the kids outside of my immediate neighborhood, not even by face). Could this happen to her?

A good law should account for exceptional circumstances.  This incident may be an exception – but the outcome of the trial could end up making it an excuse – a license to kill.  I certainly would not want to be on the receiving end of it.

Last week, on the occasion of my daughter’s seventh birthday, a few friends were invited for dinner.  While food and drinks formed an integral part of the celebration, the highlight, as always, was the “adda” (colloquial Bengali for casual conversation). All involved were Indians- more precisely, Bengalis. Being the host, I was mobile most of the time hopping among clusters of guests. That is, until I chanced upon a lively discussion over Indo-Chinese appetizers. The topic was the relative financial success of first generation Indian and Asian immigrants and how it changes for subsequent generations when compared to other racial/ethnic groups in the US.  The participants were almost all first generation immigrants (i.e. who were born and raised outside of the US, but later immigrated and settled in the US) except for a single bright young college student representing the second generation.

The Motion

Asian Indians widely believe (this is anecdotal, though), quite narcissisticaly,  that the average Indian household is relatively better off compared to an average American household. Why? Popular belief is that most Indians who emigrate,  do so because they want to pursue higher studies and better jobs. The procedural and financial commitments involved ensure that the most driven of these individuals, also referred to as the “cream of the crop” make it to the United States. [Disclaimer: I would argue that this crop is only tiny only a tea spoon full of the “cream” with the remainder pursuing their interests, quite successfully, in the homeland. But that is another argument for another day]. Over time, these immigrants (in the US) climb up the ladder of success because of their drive, hard work, ambition, and acumen.

However, some conclude, the offspring, may not have the same characteristics (as traits often skip a generation, or two) and may be more like the other Americans – following their own likings over pragmatic options for financial success, for myriad reasons. Therefore, the average second generation Indian immigrant, will likely be less ahead of the fellow average American than his/her parents. In statistical terms, if the income distribution for all Americans forms a normal distribution, the average income of the first generation Indian immigrants would be further to the right compared to the second or succeeding generation.

The argument against the motion is that the second/succeeding generation is more likely to increase the gap with the average American, because they not only have a high chance of inheriting the drive, intellect and other virtues of their parents, but also will have the advantage of better opportunities that their predecessors did not have during their third world upbringing.

I was instantly attracted to this exciting discussion – particularly because this argument stood a better chance of being proved (or disproved), unlike many others.  I decided to check the facts from the Census Bureau records and hence this article. The plan is to do a cursory analysis of the available data in the public domain – and attempt to see how it informs this discussion. I intend this discussion to be a multi-part series.

Data Sources

Besides the decennial census records, the Census Bureau also conducts the American Community Surveys (ACS) every 5 years and provides 1 year, 3 year and 5 year estimates. The 5 years estimates covers the broadest range in terms of population. So I decided to pick three groups to compare: all racial and ethnic groups (i.e. the overall US population), Asians, and Asian Indians.

In Part 1 of this article, I am not examining time series data –  I am focusing on the current (or rather recent) situation.

Key Questions

In this part, I am focusing on the following questions:

  1. How does the median household income for Asian Indians compare to Asians and the United States as a whole?
  2. How does the per capita income for Asian Indians compare to Asians and the United States as a whole?
  3. What are the percentages of Indian households in various income groups? How do these percentages vary from Asian and the United States as a whole?

It may be worth mentioning that in my analyses, comparisons are made among Indians, Asians (and not Asians who are not Indians) and all of the United States (rather than Americans who are not Asians or Indians).


First, ACS data have a certain margin of error –  which is not always consistent among the groups compared. But for the intent and purpose of the analysis, I believe the margin of error is quite acceptable as long as it is acknowledged. Secondly, the data compared are a mix of 2010 and 2011 surveys, which, again, should not significantly impact the findings or the conslusions.


  1. Number of households [Table 1]: As of 2011, there were approximately 115 million households in the United States and Asians comprised almost 4% of those households. Asian Indian households comprise a fifth of all Asian households, which is slightly over three-quarters of a percent of all the households in the United States.
  2. Median household income [Table 1]: The median household income for Asian Indians, Asians and overall United States are respectively $88,000, $69,000 and $53,000. So median income for Asians is 30% higher than the median household income for overall United States and the median household income for Asian Indians is 28% higher than the median for all Asians.
  3. Per Capita Income [Table 1]: While the general variations in the median household income hold true for per capita income, the differences are less profound. The per capita incomes for Asian Indians, Asians and all Americans are $38,000, $30,000 and $28,000 respectively. In terms of percentages, the per capita income for Asians is 7.5% higher than the per capita income for overall United States and that of the Indians is 26% higher than that for Asians.
  4. Percentage of householders by household income range [Figure 1]: The general trend is very similar across the groups compared (i.e. Asian Indians, Asians and overall United States], at least up to a household income of $150,000.  Beyond that, Asian Indians show a sharp rise, Asians show a rise but not as sharp as Asian Indians, and the national data shows a slight drop. As far as percentage of households in the income ranges below $75,000, Asian Indians trail Asians who in turn trail the Nation. Almost two-thirds of the nation has household income below $75,000. For Asians, the percentage is about 54% and for Asian Indians 41 %. For every income range above $75,000, the percentages are highest for Asian Indians, followed by Asians.
  5. Median Income in different age groups [Figure 2]: Four age groups were compared: Less than 25; 25 to 44; 45 to 64; and over 64.  Except for the less than 25 year old householders, Indians led Asians and Asians led the Nation in median house hold income. Median income of Asian Indians exceeded the Nation’s by almost 93% for 65 and older population, by 58% in 25 to 44 age group and by 46% in the 45 to 64 age group. When compared to Asians, the median income of Asian Indians was 21-22% higher between 25 and 64 and almost 77% higher for the older than 64 age group.

Part 2 will focus on conclusions of these findings. If I get to Part 3, I will review historical census data and explore how theses trends have changed over time.  I appreciate any and all feedback.

Table 1. Number of Households, median Household Income and Per Capita Income Comparison

Asians Indians Asians v.
Indians v.
Indians v. Asians
 114,761,359    4,501,393 884,368 3.92% 0.77% 19.65%
Median Household
 $ 52,762  $ 68,950  $ 88,133 30.68% 67.04% 27.82%
Per Capita
 $ 27,915  $ 30,021  $ 37,931 7.5% 35.9% 26.3%

Figure 1: Percentage of householders by household income range [Click on figure to enlarge]


Figure 2: Median income by age group [Click on figure to enlarge]



Posted: May 14, 2012 in Uncategorized

I turned 38 yesterday.

I woke up to my daughter’s excited voice earlier than I wanted to on a Sunday morning.  I tried my best to shed the 6 days of weariness from my vision to focus on the greetings card that she had made for me. The innocence and heart in the fledgling pencil script instantly made my day. My wife and friend of almost 38 years was right there, smiling, ready to grant me culinary and extra-culinary wishes on the special occasion.

As it happened, it was also Mother’s Day – so I did not quite have a monopoly on the agenda. But that did not stop me from dictating the proceedings.

This was the first birthday I was celebrating with my parents in twelve years – it had to be special. My mom, who seems to be in a hurry to spend out the good years of her life, promised me her famous rice-pudding. My dad handed me a birthday card with his characteristic clear, accurate, appropriate yet genuine wishes that I have become so used to over the years. And B, she promised me the Polao and Pathar Mangsho, authentic Bengali preparations, just the way I like it.

In all it was a day that was well worth the 12 years of waiting. But I could not help thinking whether I will ever again have something like this. Mom, Dad, B and S all right around me – the people I care for the most. I think I have come to acknowledge the realities of life, and reconciled with it, perhaps more so than most people. But I can never skirt these thoughts totally. How are things going to be 5 years from now, 3 years from now, next year?

And, then I decided, when I am making memories for tomorrow and the days to come, I should really put my mind to it. Not worry about capturing it in degradable media, but in my mind vault that comes with a lifetime warranty – if it fails, chances are that I will also lose my ability to worry- so no worries there!

And I got on with it.